My woo woo is coming back.
Can I get a HELL YEA, BITCHES!
I’ve always been very spiritual, but the last couple years, my woo woo energy was starting to wane. My ju ju went on the froo froo #sadface
For the last couple years, I’ve felt like my rock star energy was slipping away from me and I couldn’t for the life of me, take hold of it. It was like trying to hold on to a fish that kept slipping out of my hands. I’d feel like I had a good grip, but then something would happen to throw me off and I’d start fumbling with it again.
I was getting frustrated and annoyed about feeling stuck, so I felt the best way to lose the stuck feeling was to stop trying to figure it out and just let it go. Rookie mistake. Rookie mistake from a “seasoned pro.”
Eventually, I stopped believing in the magic, I stopped listening to and honouring my muse. I started ignoring the signs.
You know what happened next?
The magic, my Muse, stopped believing in me.
Your spiritual journey is not always going to be linear and that’s ok.
In Elizabeth Gilbert’s book, Big Magic (Fan-friggin-tastic book for any and all of you creators and creatives out there, I can’t recommend it enough. In fact, grab your copy here –> Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear) she talks about creative inspiration and how she feels it comes about. She feels creative inspiration floats around us on a constant basis, the ideas that are meant for us will stick to us and the ones that aren’t just float on by to the next person. Once your creative inspiration hooks you though, you have to grab it and run with it before the winds of change come through and sweep it away and into the arms of a more willing subject. I butchered her theory, you’re better off to just get the book and hear it from her. She explains it perfectly.
This is how I have felt about my spiritual journey. The energy is always encapsulating me, swirling around, teasing me, but none of it was sticking. Every once in a while, something would brush up against me so closely that I could feel it with such intensity that my chest would tighten, but I just couldn’t grab hold of it. In fact, I was so lost that I didn’t know where I was reaching or WHAT I was reaching for. I often described this experience as trying to start a lawnmower with a broken spark plug… or a lawnmower with dirt in the gas tank. You pull and pull, but it just won’t catch long enough to start. The lawnmower needs some TLC, the kind of TLC that I had been denying giving to myself.
This hurt me a lot. It hit me hard. I felt lost, alone and as though my purpose had up and left me with all that woo woo energy.
What is a hard core spiritual gangster to do without her fabulous, all encompassing, woo woo?
I started to feel alone and confused. I was constantly asking for signs. The problem was that I wasn’t open to receiving the signs, hence the reason SHE (woo woo, energy, god, muse, inspiration…) left me in the fist place. I’d turned my back on her. I put up walls that blocked her out and instead of beating down the door, like she had in the past, she just packed up her bags and mozied on to the next soul, a soul that was more willing to accept her love and guidance.
Energy. Universal life force. Muse. God. Call it what you will and whatever resonates with you. This is an all embracing, non-judgemental article on purpose and connection.
Your Muse… you must take care of your Muse. She likes that. She likes it when you listen and get really riled up and excited about her ideas. She gets off on watching you utilize your creative energy to the full extent of your capabilities, but when you don’t… she starts to feel rejected, and just as anyone who has been rejected enough times would do, she gave up trying.
You remember angry Tinkerbell in Peter Pan. That’s what happens when you disappoint her.
See the thing is, my badass spiritual energy is a large part of what makes me such a great teacher, it is a large part of what makes me, ME – Obvs! My spiritual energy is why I am good at what I do. If I am to lose that part of me, how am I to supposed to continue my path of motivating, teaching and guiding?
I felt like a fraud. If I can’t even believe in myself, how can I ever get anyone else to have faith in me? I slowly started letting go of all the things I had previously been called to do.
Have you ever felt so compelled and called to do something and you KNOW that you are supposed to do it, but you just can’t for the life of you figure out how to do it?
That’s my struggle.
I know I am not alone in this.
As a soulful entrepreneur, we can expect these challenges throughout our entire journey. It’s inevitable.
I know what I am capable of. I have no problem seeing the bigger picture. I see exactly what COULD be if I could just figure my shit out long enough to get a plan in place. The problem is…. I feel it, I get lit up and excited, but by the time I sit down to brain dump, she’s up and left me again. There are times when my chest hurts so badly, and I literally can’t breathe because I feel like all my ideas, my thoughts… my purpose are being blocked in my throat.
The inability to release this energy and work your creative nature can cause physical pain and ailments, it NEEDS to be released. Take an evaluation of YOU and see if you can find any physical ailments that could be caused by energetic blockages (thyroid condition, migraines, chest pains, back pain, hip pain… )
My handy dandy tips and tools to help get through the dreaded blockages:
- Breathe. Breathe through it. Try not to refuse or reject the negativity and just let it flow through you and run it’s course. Centre and ground yourself with some deep breathing and / guided mediation. I listened to a lot of guided meditations on releasing blockages over the last few months. I’ve never been all that great at meditation, despite my practice, so I use YouTube. It gets the job done.
- Yoga. My yoga helps me connect to my inner voice. Helps me balance my energy and gets me out of my head. I wrote about it here –> 12 Tips for Starting a Yoga Practice
- Affirmations. The power of positive thinking and the laws of attraction are totally a thing. They work. It’s been scientifically proven. An affirmation that I have used to help get me through the bullshit in my head, “I am loved and supported, and the universe has my back.” Short, sweet, and simple. It’s not overly woo woo and my logical brain can’t say anything negative about it. My brain and logical thoughts can’t call bullshit because it is entirely believable and entirely true.
- Patience. I’ve learned that patience is the key to balance. Even though I have been on this journey for quite a few years, I don’t have all the answers and I never will. I will fall off my path, but as long as I find my way back that’s ok. I have tattoos that serve as my reminders. When I feel like I am getting lost, I simply look in the mirror and remind myself of who I am and why I am here. It words like a charm.
- Blind Faith. As long as the pressure is off and I trust that I am on the right path, I know I will get to where I need to be. Comparison will rob you of your joy and it will certainly not get you to where you need to be any quicker. I’ve learned to trust that I am fully loved and supported and I am exactly where I need to be.
My other, more woo woo tools of the trade.
Crystals. I love my crystals. I have variety of them and which ones I carry that day will depend entirely on which one calls to me in the morning. It all depends on my needs for that day. Quartz is almost always with me though. It’s one of my must-haves. I will write a post about crystals and link it back to here. There is a lot to cover and this article is already long enough as it is.
Here is a sweet little crystal kit to get you started:
My Oils. Essential oils help me in many, many ways. I use them to help ground and balance my emotions. I use them to centre my thoughts and to help get my creativity flowing. I could ample on and on about oils as well, but again, I will save that for another post. My top oils are: Cheer, Balance, Grapefruit and Frank.
I’ve been a doTerra Advocate, aka Essential Oil Junkie for yours. If you have oil questions, concerns or want to get your hands on some oils let me know. Feel free to peruse my website to see what is available: mydoterra.com/sheenacunning
Smudging. Smudge yourself, your surroundings and your space – EVERYTHING. Smudge it all. Smudging is a Native American ceremony that uses burning Sage to clear and purify the energy and drive away evil forces and negative energy. I do this seasonally or any time I experience blockages or have something negative happening in my life. It’s a great way to cleanse the palette and start fresh.
Grab yourself a Smudge kit here:
Reiki. I can’t even begin to tell you how much this helped me. My energy was so blocked that it was actually causing me migraines last year. A few sessions of Reiki and my release was epic. Once the cracks started, the creativity started flowing and I was finally able to feel ME again.
What are your best practices to help keep yourself centered and grounded?
How do you manage and get past creative blocks?